Speed of my words can't match the speed of my thoughts!

judgemental ...

2010-07-05T12:34:00.000-07:00

this is yet another post on relationships ! can we love someone having a check list in hand ? ( now some of you pls don't raise your voice and say "how can we blindly fall in love with someone without knowing each other "very well" [read as bio-data]?" i know u guys are pretty rational in ur decision making and got A grades in social clubs for being the most decisive, clear headed , logical thinking person. thank u. pls unwind and be yourself for a true romance to happen ) i am not writing about all those formal stuffs which our grandmas would like in a marriage to call it a "good match/pair" (no offence meant here for all those traditional values. i Do respect it. its difficult even for me to marry someone without having our horoscopes done and call it as "matching"[but it comes only in the later part of commitment. with my limited knowledge in astrology,i can say that there is no need for a horoscope matching when people have chosen their better halves. the stars bring the people together for some destiny-karma and surprisingly for pairs who have married without having done their horoscopes matched, there will be strong connecting factors leading to marriage.so when am head over heels on someone, i will always bring this point :p thats why i said "its difficult for me" and not "i cant" ] ). getting straight to the point ( i know its too much-after writing so much, wats the point in telling" getting straight to the point" :d ), i want to stress about the fact that we limit our chances for a true-happy-story book romance by being judgmental about whom we will marry. we "think and program" our selves that we can like only a "particular" type of person and other "types" are boring or "not-my-kind-of guy" attitude. people are complex and we never know what their true nature is. this applies both in the positive sense as well as in negative sense. we might not know all about a person's mind, even if known for years. their true colours may actually bring in a lot more smiles than we ever thought, but only if we choose to remove those judgmental, unseen barriers. its not uncommon for people to fall in love with a person whom they once thought " hmmm ! he is not the one i would like to fall in love with". it can happen suddenly. it can happen in a flash. it can happen unaware of or unconsciously. it can happen even after a deadly fight !! life is so unpredictable and as someone pointed out "life is what happens to u , when u keep planning and scheduling, sometimes even shaking up the whole thing". suddenly one can find the cold, irritable, over powering or perhaps even boring guy to be all warm, charming, empowering, magnetic, desperately-want-to-spend-time with type of guy. but this time the veil of prejudice might have bid goodbye for the good's sake to leave the couple struck in an happy awe !!!!!!! okay. i have written enough about the mushy things :p :) back to theory ! :( falling in love is not a process. no formulas. no pre set notions. if such formulas and process can bring love, there would be no singles in the world ! when i write about falling in love as naturally as one would love to, i dont mean a bad matching- where after the initial glow of romance everything would fall down loose and wat remains is only betrayal and denials. admittedly, we all have a set of non-negotiables in our mind which is deeply ingrained in our sub conscious mind something like "i can't marry someone with a deep liking for pets" or "i can't marry someone who doesn't appreciate music". we can't carry a check list around when we are falling in love !!!! truly speaking that can't lead to a happy ending. sometimes we may even have wrong ideas about whom we can possibly like. in reality, our hearts might truly like an opposite character to what we imagined !! all that i write about is, just being oneself to enjoy what love means; not to bring in artificial barriers and being prejudicial when it comes to love ! is it not true that love defies logics? love is blind and blah blah blah blah?????????? even the most logical person would sound crazy when it comes to falling in love ! even the thought once " he/she can never be someone whom i will marry" turns drastically, diagramatically opposite !! to enjoy the bliss of love, we need to relax,be ourselves and like people without judging them ! we never know when the spark can hit us ! we never know with whom we can fall in love !!!!!!!!!!!!!

nostalgic :)

2010-01-13T10:37:00.000-08:00

After my hectic days with the exams and my out of station trips, i was a bit bored and i goggled "nsn school" :) ( very strange that i dint google any of those astrological jargons, which i do not even know the meaning for few of the words :d )i came across those write ups given by my school in the Quest-The hindu newspaper. even i contributed one article which i have pasted down. I felt nostalgic on reading that and thought that many of those words have come true today ! it rewinded me with a plethora of emotions - my attitude at that time, the joy on seeing my name in the news paper, the fan mail which i received for that article and so on!!!!!!! i thought why don i blog it down and here it goes...........

Is it my choice?

It was June 18, 2001. I was awaiting my X Standard Board Examination results. I was tensed and nervous. People were keeping on telling me. "This mark will show how you have studied all these days; your efforts and sincere work". Even though I prepared well for my exams, when I heard such words, I doubted whether I studied well or not. I felt that I would be embarrassed when I walk on the road, if I don't get good marks. The results were published. By god's Grace, I got 83 per cent I was not satisfied, but still I felt happy. I don't know why.

So far, I only feared my marks. But next came the biggest `dragon' — "which group should I choose"? I suppose, right from my VIII Standard, I was only thinking of taking Commerce group, because I have a strong passion for Law and I wanted to become a Chartered Accountant like my father. So, whenever people asked me which group I was about to take, I answered "Commerce" without any hesitation.

Now, I'd like to quote some of my experiences with people, when I answered "Commerce". Nearly 85 percent of them were shocked, to be frank. They questioned, "commerce! But why? You could choose Computer Science. This is `the era of computers!' You've got a lot of scope as Software Engineer in America". While some said, "Why are you taking Commerce? Take Biology. It is very useful. You could opt for both Engineering as well as Medicine. It's better, you change your decision". But only a few appreciated me, "Ah! That's good. Commerce — Fine! You can opt for CA — money! Money! — You can `Mint' Money. Good! That's a very good practical decision in today's competitive world".

But, I didn't change my decision. I was firm in my decision; "Only commerce". Before my board exams, someone even discouraged me by saying, "Oh! You are going to take only commerce, 65 per cent marks will do to get that group". It was this sarcastic comment, which was an incentive to me where I decided, "I'll get more marks and join commerce".

So, I was ready to take Commerce group. But all of a sudden my father told me "Abi! Are you sure, you want to take Commerce? Think well! You could opt for Biology which offers you more scope". I didn't understand why even my father wanted me to take Biology — Probably because of today's trend. I was firm all the time. But once my father told me to take Biology, confusion was born in my mind. I became a bit confused, "Oh! What should I take?" My father, even though he told me to opt for Biology, he did not force me. He later said, "It's up to your wish. I don't want to force you".

Till the time of interview, I didn't open my mouth. My parents were questioning me, "Have you decided? Which group are you going to select?" I answered, "I do not know. I may change my decision at any time". I was thinking, all the time thinking about my selection of the group.

Finally, the day of the interview came. I decided which group I should take. I firmly answered without any confusion "Madam! Commerce, Accountancy, Business Mathematics, computer Science". I felt relieved. I felt that I've done something great. My confusion fled away.

Later, my parents were also happy. My father told me, "It's nice, and you've chosen Commerce. It'd be easy for me to help you in your studies". I felt happy that I've made my parents feel happy.

I don't think it is correct to force children to take a particular group. We must be left to choose the group of our choice. Only then, we can shine in that particular field.

But what I don't understand even now is why most of the people asked me not to select Commerce Group?

Muthu Abirami T V, XII
Chennai: N S N Matric H.S. School

addicted to sleep !

2009-08-13T10:59:00.000-07:00

These days we find "n" number of articles in the media about stress-free lives and adequate sleep to lead a healthy life. Never have i felt the need that these articles apply to me. Not that i lead a stress-free life but i always catch adeqaute sleep , sometimes too adeqaute for others to think that am mad ! when it comes to stress, i have dealt enough and thanking God that i'm not under any stress right now. but when it comes to the sleeping issue, i'm feeling ashamed of myself. i sleep---sleep like i will never sleep again--sleep like i have never slept for eons. its like i can sleep whenever i want to. something like what we see in mythological stories that a person can change form as per his/her needs or something blah blah like that. people used to tell me that we need God's boon to sleep like this. even during the college tour in the final year, i wanted a good sleep and slept well too, to the ridicule of my friends !!!!!!! there was a day at that time , i was irritable and was in my meanest moods just because i did not sleep enough !!!!!!! there were times i felt proud of myself for this "wonderful" trait ( gggggrrrrosssss !!!!!!!! i know- but its the past thought :p) it took a while for me to understand that it was not a healthy habit !!!!!!! i consciously try to avoid the pattern of sleep-anytime-i-want ! thanks to internet and my weird thought process, these days i browse topics like para psychology and drive away those abnormal naps. a friend of mine even commented that i would fit into no job with this type of sleeping pattern. i need to get my own company done to be in a job !!!!!!! i care less. why am i sleeping when there is something that can sustain my interest???? why am i sleeping when i have to write PCC for the third time with very little time for preparation?? why am i sleeping when all i can see is a question marked future??? why am i sleeping when i don my proud robes and persuade His/Her Lordship that the IRS is grossly erroneous in applying the provisions and taxing my client??? gone are those days when i enjoyed sleeping . it used to be "sleeping -an eternal pleasure". these days, for reasons beyond my control i cant enjoy this eternal pleasure ! once i clear the final, im sure it will resume. rather, i hope, it will !

the best ingredient !

2009-02-05T11:04:00.000-08:00

This thought is running around in my mind for a long time..only that i havent penned it down (as usual:p) ... what makes a relationship last long ? (ofcourse with happiness) its quite a common question and we get a variety of answers- understanding, love & affection, sacrifice, compromise etc etc !! but in my opinion the two main ingredients are respect and accepting & loving the person for whom he/she is. i place high importance to "respect" as a key factor in building a relationship. i'l try to focus only on the first aspect because the second factor can itself be penned as a separate article (which i'l do in a few days)! "respect"- why in double quotes ? its not the kind of respect i mean which we show / exhibit towards our superiors. because most often than not these are only showy in nature :)! respect is "not taking the other person for granted". it is the basic courtesy which we must show towards the other person. it could be a damn simple thing. getting back to a missed call or replying for a very casual sms..but it means a lot..after all, simple things matter a lot in life. most often relationships becomes a mishap when there is no balance in the relationship. the balance of proper give and take.. when i mean give and take its not business. its just returning the love with gratitude which the other person has showered. when ever there is an excess of love from a side while its not reciprocated at the desired level, frustration sets in.. there is bound to be a feeling of "i'm neglected". its not just the understanding or the deep affection that matters. its plain respecting the feeling of the other person. its quite common for the people in a relationship to expect this respect-to be looked upon-to be treated well.most often, the kind of courtesy / respect will be unduly high during the beginning of any relationship. it starts eroding if the person gets a feeling "afterall he/ she's mine" over a long period of time. time and again we have heard people say" u were not like before"and its a main cause for frustration in a relationship. this "afterall" is the trouble-maker. respect lies in obliging to small requests/ wishes-the plain basic courtesy. the proverb"smallest act is better than a grandest intention" is well suited here ! its not just a ritual.. it has to come from within ! its not a formality. its jus expressing to the other person that you truly care for them! when we show so much courtesy and politeness to a stranger, why are we not willing to shower it on a person who means so much to us? keeping the balance in the relationship , treating the other person well will go a long way in keeping a healthy and happy relatiosnhip ! :)

HAPPINESS RESIDES IN ONESELF.

2008-12-29T22:11:00.001-08:00

All of us have one pursuit in common. It’s the pursuit of happiness. Whatever we do, we expect bliss at the end of the activity. We are in search of that happiness. But why should we call as a pursuit? If we call it as a pursuit, then ever we will be in that unattainable quest. Let’s call it as enlightening of what is already present.

James Oppenheim was absolutely right when he stated that “The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his feet.” It is true that happiness resides in oneself. Life becomes a misery when we search for the happiness from external sources. Happiness comes from within. It’s a state of mind. If we choose to be happy, no matter whatever comes, we will still have a reason to smile. But if we start searching for the happiness outside, we will always have a reason to frown, no matter how well things go on.

Life has given us so many reasons to smile and stay happy but our mind is never self-content and the pursuit to happiness goes on.

Morning dew, fresh flowers, sight of the full moon, touch of a new born, smile from a stranger in a crowd, pat from our boss for a small feat, a lengthy conversation with a long lost friend and the list goes on….. All of them can bring us happiness if we really choose to acknowledge them.

A happy person spreads happiness everywhere. The exuberance in a person is contagious. That is why we are joyous when we are with certain people. Their spirit is so soaring that we will always want to be around that person. When we embrace such happiness and positive energy from within, our aura is bound to produce happiness around us.

Stay happy !
With Smiles,
T.V.Muthu Abirami.

intentional??

2008-10-05T10:50:00.000-07:00

its like a "hi..long time..no see?" to my blog! there are those ideas which always revolve around my brain and which i always wanted to verbalise in the blog(just at least to keep my account active :P ) but sheer laziness keeps me away ! anyways, this one was just another thought of mine which i wanted to write in. it is about SARCASM.. i have two issues here to be dealt with( a typical advocate's slang. couldn't help avoiding it :) ) point number 1. am i sarcastic?? 2. why do people get sarcastic? to answer question 1. I'm not generally sarcastic.. in fact i hate it when it comes to sarcasm. when someone tries to be sarcastic with me, it really gets uncomfortable. i get a feeling that the person who is sarcastic is cold-blooded in nature. its like they are full of pessimism and all that i can feel around them is only negative vibrations! i get desperate to bid goodbye to the one I'm talking with. i thought they were not nice people. i always wanted to be a "nice" gal. so sarcasm is generally not my way of talking. but then i gave a thought to what i speak sometimes with certain people. taking a small detour here :) its human nature to think that all the time " IM GOOD. WHAT I DO IS CORRECT. I'M A NICE PERSON". is it not common to think that way?? i always thought that i never hurted people with my way of talking. we all have reasons for what we do. so even if our speech is sometimes sharp, we make up for ourselves that why we talked that particular way had reasons. (too bad..i know) coming back to sarcasm! i analysed that with some people i tend to be sarcastic. i wanted to get down to the root of my thought process. at this point, I'd like to converge issue no.1 and 2. i found out that sarcasm is a result of frustration. frustration on a person and frustration on a situation and the third category is pessimistic attitude on life. i found out that if am sarcastic with someone i had bottled up emotions on them and i never found an out-let to tell them what i really felt or what i wanted to tell them. it could be something like they irritated me or hurt me through their actions/ words or something that i perceived as an insult, and i never had an opportunity / courage to tell them how i felt at that point of time or when they never even bothered to listen to what i wanted to tell. even though they might not had the intention to hurt me/ irritate me. chances are that i perceived so. but whatever might be the reality, my emotions need right out-let on the right person. i was never intentional on being sarcastic. it so happens :(! i realised that i was not at my worst when i expressed my anger aloud. i was at my worst when i held the anger inside and i turn cold even without my knowledge. i remember the proverb "HE WHO IS REALLY HURT DOESNT SPEAK". when i turn cold, i deny to come out of my shell. i do not even want to show that am angry/hurt! Linda was right when she wrote on Aries woman"When the Aries woman has been really hurt, she turns from fire to ice. Her fire burns hot and dies quickly. Her ice can be eternal." ( gosh !!!!!!!!! so many detours :p)sarcasm is a state of mind for me in between the two extremes-loud anger and deep silence. its like i am desperate to let the person know that I'm hurt yet feeling so bad that i do not even want to tell that. its comes out as sarcasm! i learnt that when I'm sarcastic the other person doesn't enjoy the conversation and feels all that i feel when i had someone throwing sarcasm at me. it in fact worsens the situation! i imagined how i portrayed a obnoxious image of myself in that person's mind! :( its always better to take the extreme position. shout out aloud what we have in mind. at least we are honest about it ! we never fooled ourselves.nor irritated others with our sarcastic(sharp) tongue. the second category of frustration -on situations is easier to rectify. after all we become happy once the situation is in our favour. but the third category of frustration - pessimistic attitude on life in general is the most hard to reform ! they are those people who make life miserable for themselves as well as the others who come in contact with them. they are energy suckers ! all that we experience around them is a negative vibration full of complaints. these people never enjoy even the slightest happiness in their life. to them feeling happy is a sin. they drown themselves as well as others in sorrow all the time. god ! i don want to write any more on this category. it makes me feel unpleasant.

in the end, all that i decide is i should never be sarcastic on anyone. either i should have the courage to let them know that I'm hurt, in a direct manner or else i will pray god to give me a heart to forgive the incident. after all "WE ARE NOT HUMAN BEINGS HAVING A SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE. WE ARE SPIRITUAL BEINGS HAVING A HUMAN EXPERIENCE"

nice quotes

2008-08-08T11:19:00.000-07:00

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." ------------------------------------------------------------------BY NEIL GAIMAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.”

“In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.”

“Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry.”

" i do not think much.. i do not think often.. but when i think, i think of u "

"I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know"

how true !!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

me? an advocate?

2008-08-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

Five long years have passed so quickly ! i cant imagine myself donning the robes! very funny:) came in to law school in 2003 with so much spirit and enthusiasm. but over the years i have grown only lazy ! i only feel i havent learnt anything in the 5 years while all along my school days i dreamt of learning so many things when i enter the law school. im feeling so empty now and i have not achieved anything over the 5 years academically! i have not mastered even the tip of the ice berg syllabus! poor me :( its very true that realisation dawns late. i'm sure this will be the case for any law school student. wrote the semesters just to pass through. still in the end, by god's grace i managed to get a decent aggregate of 65% . there will always be fear element before the results ! prayers will go in tons and millions ! nightmares of being failed ! now after crossing ten semesters, when i look back, the memories are sweeter ! the wait has finally come to an end ! my passion-my dream-my ambition-"to become an advocate" is going to happen in another few days ! thanks be to the almighty. i'm not filled with joy;neither am gloomy. i just feel i have more responsibilities to take on; more targets to achieve, before i feel elated and "on top of the world". in another couple of years, i must achieve them. i only pray for the almighty's continued blessings and guidance who must give me the determination and motivation to achieve things !

the recurring pattern !

2008-05-11T10:08:00.000-07:00

this is not my usual energetic post ! (though i have posted only three, they were full of energy) i have given myself to depression. (though, it will be short and i'll recoup just after tonight's sleep) i just had a "heart-break" and the pattern is just recurring as it used to be ever since i had my first crush ! all my crushes were terribly one sided (though not very serious) and never ever i had the guts to let my intentions known to the other person. if at all i make any advance, it will be very subtle and the other person often misses the clue(or should i have to call it as "they chose to miss the clue"?? or is it destined so? am clueless on that part). and all these one sided crushes would already be making advances to some other gal (will pursue quite seriously), which i will never know in the begininng, while i dream here (though, only to a little extent). one fine day (sooner or later) i will come to know of this, only to find myself shocked and surprised, while heavily disappointed too.
i always wished that the next one wouldnt be this way. but again to my disappointment, it will end up the same way. of late, because of this, i fear even to trust my intuition. i never know whether its my imagination, that the other person is also interested in me (because of the dream i build, i take evry action of the other person to be positive towards me), or is it the real solid truth which my intuition brings me. now i conclude that its only the rosy picture which i paint! i had no great belief in fate or destiny. but now i trust that everything is predetermined by God. otherwise i wouldnt be seeing such a recurring pattern in all my "shattered dreams". its just the same. the events turn out in the same way. more than worrying for the lost crush, i worry only for the recurring pattern. the question "why me alone?" takes a monstrous proportion. everytime for my own good i wantedly break my thoughts away from my past. but somehow or the other i go back-back(er)-back(est) and fall in to a short depression. today is such a day. i just came to know of the "bad news" only this evening and my usual thoughts whirl-wind my mind and i just cant stop thinking about it. "why me alone??????????????" uh-! just fed up plainly. i must give myself time to heal and be normal. it does lowers my confidence level which i hate to the core. i only thank God, for the stronger self i'm;for all my self-motivated spirit; i recoup my usual energy-level and confidence level in just a day and all my depression will vanish soon. but the memory will always haunt me! but it does makes me stronger. i only wish good luck to myself, so that next time atleast this pattern is broken( i dont mean i need a new pattern of heart-break :p) my dreams about "MY" knight in shining armor gets even more stronger,for he is not around me right now in any physical form and my imagination goes wild thinking "how would he be? when will he reach me from behind the clouds?" and the dreams are worth for all the pain i undergo! "hey......when will you reach me?????????????? "

THE TEMPLATE CHANGE

2007-11-07T11:55:00.000-08:00

long time since i scribbled something here !! after a long thought process ( can be read as vetiness) did not know what else to do.. then came the thought of this blogging !! as i signed in, i thought i can change something with the looks of the blog..so screwed in to the options of templates. previewed everything..but nothing was satisfactory.. was kept on changing... couldnt come to a definite one.. one among the reasons was the thought of color-psychology.."what if i choose this color..does that mean my thought process was------...wat if i choose the other color....does that mean im like------...."blah blah blah.... atlast i concluded that i will go with my favorite color"green" no matter what the psychology abt that meant and found it better than the others...liked quite few other colors and options also..but green over rided everything...[coludnt come out of such thoughts how much ever hard i try not to get too much into mind-analysing and psychology :( ] as i kept doing these changes, there came in another philosophical thought.. "do looks really matter?? is it not the content that matters?" im always a staunch supporter of the content and not its look.. have taken this as an excuse for my bad handwriting,to blame the examiner... ( how wicked am :)) !!! ) have taken this as an excuse whenever i feel lazy to dress up for some occassion (my conscience asks me now... have u ever been "not lazy"?? you ARE lazy all the time!!and u write 'WHENEVER I FEEL LAZY' me replying: "ok ok ok...no more damage") but excuses apart, i have always felt that it is only the contents that matters and not its appearance...be it people or things....!! i question myself at this juncture whether i lack the sense of appreciation towards arts ??the aesthetic sense?? if i had to answer this, my reply would be "i dont know" so far i havent felt any mind boggling effect on seeing any painting or artistic work?? i have had great reverence for the artists..i have thought that they were great people..blessed and talented people..i used to wonder in awe about the person...but the painting??? "i still dunno" now back to looks vs content...!! content scores at full swing over the appearance.. again question arises in me in this form..."but is it not necessary for the content to get the attention and appreciation it deserves?? for that, the looks will help in achieving it.. so you can never discard the value of appearance" may be this is what the true position is..but i cant admit it with full heart... i still feel " what value has the appearance got? nothing.. " my conscience questions me" then for what the golden reason you changed the template and was confused about the effect of it in color-psychology?" with a typical law student answer, i try to convince my conscience " the color-psychology thought was actually in relation to the content what the color meant about..it was not a launch pad for my content... moreover i changed it because i was jobless...i wanted to do something and i came to blogging" my conscience :" huh !!" i do not know whether my conscience was convinced. atlast be it content or look...color psychology or artistic work....whatever be it...i had something to scribble on here... i could produce in writing atleast a little of what my brain does....but too restless even now with lot of other questions...." you wanted to write about something else originally..but you finished off with some other thing..............so you really dont care for looks?? blah blah blah " but feeling too lazy to put them into typing" then why the golden reason you are doing blogging??".... peace to my writings.. counsel rests the case... :)

change of my coll timings

2007-10-13T07:02:00.000-07:00

this is really interesting for me !!!!!!!!!! my college has changed our timings from 9.30am-1.30pm to 2pm-5pm....i just love this...!! for me, its jus the perfect timing !! i can get up as late as 12 noon..and just be awake all night :) weirdo !!!!!!!!!!!! all along i have been struggling to attend classes by 9.30am...it has made me sick and i have hated it all these days( nah..years!!!)... its a welcome move as far as im concerned. hopefully henceforth i shall not complain about going to college... :) but i'm totally against one idea of my college.... they insist that we be in court in the morning and then attend classes in the afternoon... its a BIG NO NO NOOOOOOO..... lets wait for the referendum :) but i guess most people in my class are against the idea of the change of time.... but not me anyway :)

my first post !!!!!!!!!

2007-10-13T06:33:00.000-07:00

my first post !!!!!!!! well... im not a very good writer.....but still i hope to scribble down something... :) i'm basically a person with varied interests .... im quite restless if i have nothing to think :) and i'm very talkative ( when compared to the speed of my thoughts, i talk less) !!! law,astrology, psychology, philosophy, religion and anything metaphysical are my basic interests !! apart from them there are so many things which take my interest..may be momentary sometimes..but still i get involved once i like it... :) i love to think in abstract terms than going by cold logic !! for the most part, i'm intensely involved in whatever i do..i cant do anything with shallow interests or to do something jus for the sake of doing it !! there is no middle ground for me !! an extremist by nature !! my policy is "work hard..play hard" right now however i'm just playing hard :)) work has taken a back seat....probably once am done with my academics, i'l do something concrete to build up my career !! then it will be "work hard" part. law is my first passion and i hope to be a "great" advocate in future !!! but lets see how God has made his plans for me !! and.....what else...hmmmm....... right now im closing my first post !!! will come up with better ones in future ;)